today healing looks like taking action on my long term goals. i left a toxic work situation at the end of 2018 and spent 2019, 2020 and 2021 working to find myself, reorient, listen and figure out what i wanted to do with my life. it was a foreign concept – i was used to molding myself into what i thought others wanted me to be. making choices consciously for myself … that was new.
today i put a few hours in on a book proposal that i have been working on for a few months. i received feedback from peers a few weeks ago, and spent some time today sitting with the feedback and making changes. to write a really good and effective paragraph can be so hard – i worked on it for hours and still didn’t nail it yet. i love the ease and fluidity of blogging here – no performance standards, no self-judgement.
currently i am a professor teaching english 101 at a local community college. many of the students struggle with writing. they came to college underprepared and i am working to meet them where they are and help them make progress. progress looks different for each student. i love coaching the students to make progress wherever they can, even if it is a small step like learning the difference between “its and it’s” or remembering to use spellcheck.
so i am giving myself that kindness and grace. taking steps, even small, toward my long-term goals.
“Whatever you can do, or dream you can do, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it. Begin it now” – Goethe