I have gotten or I am getting to the root. Sometimes it feels worse than being unconscious. But I trust it. I trust my own wisdom and my body’s wisdom about healing and my future.
I see and feel my future self. She is wise, grounded, compassionate, non-reactive. She is unbothered and when a trigger comes she pauses and rides the waves of emotion like a pro surfer. She rides them and she knows she is safe.
She rides them and has FUN doing so. It is beautiful watching her surf. Her children are on the beach watching her surf, learning.
Her husband may take a video of it. He is proud of her. His energy beams and helps her keep riding.
When the wave is over and things are calm, they sit on the beach together, marveling at the beauty of the ocean. The vast expanse of IS-ness. The symphony of waves crashing. The warmth of the sun.
Gratitude for all of it, and this life.