holding back and not speaking up. this is the main way i betrayed myself for much of my life. now that i know it and can openly recognize and articulate it, i can also forgive.
i have been speaking up a lot over the past week or two. one little action gives way to another and another and another until there is a new pattern. then i feel lighter and new things become possible.
it feels good to have let go of a toxic friend who did nothing but complain and gossip constantly. it was hard to do, but i held strong. i also declined several invitations that didn’t seem inviting. and said no to yet another multi-level marketing (MLM) appeal from an acquaintance. (it was for some kind of collagen product).
i was a yes woman for the first 46 years of my life. for the next 46, i plan to use a bit more discretion. by “going for it,” i mean really being true to what i believe, feel and desire in my heart instead of ALWAYS trying to accommodate those around me.
it feels good.