FALSE RELIEF: things I do to appease my anxiety that do not help 1. Buy shit 2. People please 3. Eat salty/sweet foods 4. Drink alcohol 5. Consume negative media 6. Gossip TRUE RELIEF: things I do to appease anxiety that work and do not harm me or others 1. Yoga and deep breaths 2.… Continue reading False/true
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I'm a peaceful warrior, mom, nerd, & animal fan.
THE LAW OF LEAST EFFORT
“You are what your deep, driving desire is. As your desire is, so is your will. As your will is, so is your deed. As your deed is, so is your destiny. ― Brihadaranyaka Upanishad Nature doesn’t think, it doesn’t plot, it doesn’t plan. It exists. It does what it is born to do, to… Continue reading THE LAW OF LEAST EFFORT
The seat of the soul
This book arrived at the right time, in a moment that I can receive its message. Oprah in her infinite wisdom shared it with me via an audiobook copy of her latest book “What Happened to You” with Dr. Bruce D. Perry. Between Deepak, Eckhart, Oprah’s books and collaborations and now this, I marvel at… Continue reading The seat of the soul
high functioning
i have been teaching myself about healing and am amazed to learn about “high functioning anxiety.” it describes my condition to a tee. to everyone else, I appear supremely competent, confident, and accomplished. internally I feel constant fear, self-doubt, and worry. i have had this condition my whole life and it has driven me to… Continue reading high functioning
All smiles
Yesterday at the end of Yoga class, the teacher, who I had not met previously, came up to ask me my name. “You smiled through the entire class,” she said. I’m often told this. I don’t do it on purpose and I don’t know I’m doing it. I just love Yoga so much that when… Continue reading All smiles
Available to the grace of the universe…
One of the lessons that is finally beginning to penetrate my thick noggin is that of nonresistance. Buddhism, Deepak and Eckhart have always taught this. Let go and let God, the mantra of AA and other 12 Step groups. The point being, the entire universe has occurred to bring this moment. So don’t resist it… Continue reading Available to the grace of the universe…
She Let Go
by John Siddique She let goWithout a thought or a wordShe let goShe let go of the fearShe let go of the judgementsShe let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her headShe let go of the committee of indecision within herShe let go of all the right reasonsWholly and completely without hesitation or… Continue reading She Let Go
Friends as medicine
My dear cousin Kate is a lifelong intimate bestie. The sister I always longed for (I have two brothers). Medicine for me when I need restoration. A friend like no other. Visiting her over the weekend was a salve for my soul. It had been a hard week. My husband was away and my anxiety… Continue reading Friends as medicine
Creating space
Yoga helps us create space. Meditation helps us create space. Our information overload always on world creates a need for space and a reprieve from the noise and mental clutter. As a person with an overactive thinking mind and lots of unresolved anxiety and trauma, I occasionally become overwhelmed by it all. Today I had… Continue reading Creating space
Tough one
Some days we struggle. Today was one such day. I got up before 4 am. I couldn’t sleep because I didn’t have a lesson plan. English 101 requires me to brush up on the rules of grammar and citation I have long since discarded. And even so, a lot of the knowledge requires building blocks… Continue reading Tough one
Healing in Plain Sight 