Author: col

I'm a peaceful warrior, mom, nerd, & animal fan.

I am healing

I have gotten or I am getting to the root. Sometimes it feels worse than being unconscious. But I trust it. I trust my own wisdom and my body’s wisdom about healing and my future. I see and feel my future self. She is wise, grounded, compassionate, non-reactive. She is unbothered and when a trigger… Continue reading I am healing

Sh*t my yoga teacher says

Life: it’s the only game in town and no one gets out alive. The cycle of life: we are born, we grow old and we die. Do you know what happens when you get what you want? Absolutely nothing! Yoga is all about taking responsibility for ourselves. We have no one to blame but ourselves.… Continue reading Sh*t my yoga teacher says

command the space you occupy

one of the things I will be leaving behind in 2021 is hesitance to own my accomplishments and talents. i heard a pundit say “command the space you occupy” and it resonated. my imposter complex sometimes results in me having extreme humility about what I have experienced and achieved. my yoga teacher often says, “have… Continue reading command the space you occupy

False/true

FALSE RELIEF: things I do to appease my anxiety that do not help 1. Buy shit 2. People please 3. Eat salty/sweet foods 4. Drink alcohol 5. Consume negative media 6. Gossip TRUE RELIEF: things I do to appease anxiety that work and do not harm me or others 1. Yoga and deep breaths 2.… Continue reading False/true

THE LAW OF LEAST EFFORT

“You are what your deep, driving desire is. As your desire is, so is your will. As your will is, so is your deed. As your deed is, so is your destiny. ― Brihadaranyaka Upanishad Nature doesn’t think, it doesn’t plot, it doesn’t plan. It exists. It does what it is born to do, to… Continue reading THE LAW OF LEAST EFFORT

The seat of the soul

This book arrived at the right time, in a moment that I can receive its message. Oprah in her infinite wisdom shared it with me via an audiobook copy of her latest book “What Happened to You” with Dr. Bruce D. Perry. Between Deepak, Eckhart, Oprah’s books and collaborations and now this, I marvel at… Continue reading The seat of the soul

high functioning

i have been teaching myself about healing and am amazed to learn about “high functioning anxiety.” it describes my condition to a tee. to everyone else, I appear supremely competent, confident, and accomplished. internally I feel constant fear, self-doubt, and worry. i have had this condition my whole life and it has driven me to… Continue reading high functioning

All smiles

Yesterday at the end of Yoga class, the teacher, who I had not met previously, came up to ask me my name. “You smiled through the entire class,” she said. I’m often told this. I don’t do it on purpose and I don’t know I’m doing it. I just love Yoga so much that when… Continue reading All smiles

She Let Go

by John Siddique She let goWithout a thought or a wordShe let goShe let go of the fearShe let go of the judgementsShe let go of the confluence of opinions swarming around her headShe let go of the committee of indecision within herShe let go of all the right reasonsWholly and completely without hesitation or… Continue reading She Let Go