Of all the things one can be addicted to, perhaps self help addiction is the least damaging. But like any other unconscious compulsive behavior, constant SEEKING takes us away from peace and equanimity. Powerful market forces trade on our resistance to present moment awareness and appreciation- self help is a is $13.2 billion industry. Santosha,… Continue reading Addicted to self help
Tag: change
birth
note to self: the discomfort of change is like the discomfort of birth. in the moment it is so difficult and painful and rough and humbling (for me it was, anyway). but what comes after it is amazing. an epic gift and presence, so worth the temporary discomfort. keep going.
the five kleshas
according to patanjali, the five kleshas are the five obstacles to yoga … the state of peace and union. my teacher talks about them often, and i can certainly see them at play in my own life. The obstacles are: 1) lack of knowledge (or understanding)2) egoism3) attachment4) aversion and 5) fear I’m sure i… Continue reading the five kleshas
doris
i’ve been in a life transition for a few years and have struggled to get over the hump. i have found myself repeatedly going back to the old, despite knowing it’s time to release it and move forward. earlier this week i met with an energy healer who did a “soul DNA” scan. i was… Continue reading doris
rejection
i have been so externally focused for most of my life … i thought it was my job to regulate my parents’ wildly fluctuating emotions and moods as a child. when i (inevitably) failed to stop their dysfunction, i blamed myself. this hypervigilance and self-blaming and shaming became ingrained and followed me into adulthood. yesterday… Continue reading rejection
farewell, energy vampires
I am in the process of detaching from a toxic person with whom I worked for over a decade. Our relationship was always lopsided. She was one of the people i “pitied” and took under my wing out of “kindness” but when I really look at it I can see that I was using her… Continue reading farewell, energy vampires
go for it
holding back and not speaking up. this is the main way i betrayed myself for much of my life. now that i know it and can openly recognize and articulate it, i can also forgive. i have been speaking up a lot over the past week or two. one little action gives way to another… Continue reading go for it
boundaries
When i set boundaries i feel better about myself. When i express my authentic needs, thoughts, and feelings and request that others respect them, i serve myself and i grow my own confidence. Throughout my life, i have let go of unhealthy relationships. In the past i had a pattern of “taking pity” on certain… Continue reading boundaries
I am healing
I have gotten or I am getting to the root. Sometimes it feels worse than being unconscious. But I trust it. I trust my own wisdom and my body’s wisdom about healing and my future. I see and feel my future self. She is wise, grounded, compassionate, non-reactive. She is unbothered and when a trigger… Continue reading I am healing
Today healing looks like…
coming home after a long day of working and Momming and – instead of going for the salty snacks and glass of red wine I crave in times of exhaustion and stress – heading to my Zen Den to stretch, journal, meditate, and post here. Of course, instead of celebrating this small victory, the alter… Continue reading Today healing looks like…
Healing in Plain Sight 